As I explained before, we receive email blasts with situations that are available in the agency. Yesterday the question of how we felt about a 3rd boy, really had me thinking. Today I went back through all my old email blasts, which had been deleted. Most of them were not situations that we wanted to consider.....whether it was a boy or a Caucasian girl or any other mix of ethnicity.
Then one stuck out. Ethnicity :AA Gender: Unknown. It had been sent January 2nd, so there was a real possibility this mom had been presented with families and possibly had chosen one. I asked Emery if he thought we should have our profile presented. He answered with a typical Emery response, he is happy with either gender but if I wanted a girl I needed to be patient. And of course he is always right:)
Of course it got me thinking, are we really meant to have a girl? Is this just MY plan for our life? Am I being stubborn and not letting His will be done? Even though, I fully know it will be done whether I help it along or not!!
So the question remains....do we have our profile presented? Why, yes we do. If it is not a girl, we won't get chosen. If we do get chosen and it is a boy, well then that is what is meant for our family. This was our decision.
This is the part of the process that people usually do not share, because there are still so many steps left. Why not just wait until the baby is in your arms to share; but that is not the point of this blog. This is to document every step of the way, no matter how hard it is sometimes to share the details. I wish I had done this with the first 2. I remember the process, but do not have a record of our emotions throughout, like I do now.
What is next you ask? Our profile will be shown to the birth mother. Then she has to make a decision as to who she would like to give the greatest gift anyone could ever be given. What do we do now? Wait.
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